I think i shall no longer talk about work cause all i'll do is complain and complain like an old hag. It's that bad! Well, i'm glad i have the friends. I know that they don't really go out at night so the fact that they are willing to meet me after work makes me so happy beyond words. It really means a lot and though it's only a really short meet up, it definitely chased away the blues temporary (it always return during work) and makes me really chirpy. And i feel so bad that Meow has to sacrifice her show just to wait for me. Much thanks!

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MTV Video Music Award was held last Sunday at Las Vegas and i'm sure the talkabout was definitely Britney's comeback performance. I was so looking forward to it for i really hope she get her act together and pulls off a good one to show the world that our iconic pop princess (though a mama now) still has what it takes to be a pop sensation. But the performance was lacklustre and she seems so lost. I feel so bad. The media, of course, takes this opportunity to dig on her again and i just feel so bad for her. She used to be on the top but these few years, she simple became a target of the media frenzy. I hope her comback would come real soon cause her first single "Gimme More", off her very much stalled-yet-anticipated studio album, is really catchy! Very much of a dance track ( i know, not my type, but still it's good) and it's already blasting mainstream radio chart. For those who haven't heard of it, seriously, where have you been hiding?

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Another news making the headline was of course, none-other than current teen sensation and Disney's biggest star, Vanessa Hudgen's nude photo leaking onto the web. Poor girl. For a minute, she has that girl-next-door image who is the on and off-screen girlfriend of another Disney star, Zac Efron. Now, she's just the girl who takes naked pictures of herself for her boyfriend. Poor girl and goodbye to money-making Disney. I wonder what is wrong with people lately. I mean, if you're real eager to show your boyfriend your body, show him in real life then! What's the point of taking a 2D picture? Being a celebrity sure comes with a price. But it's not all hate for Vanessa Hudgen i guess because she just made all teenage boys' wildest fantasy comes true.

For the first time in the week since i'd started work, i am actually grateful that i have to transfer bus at the bus stop opposite NgeeAnn. Normally, i would hate the sight of it cause it means that i'm literally going to school every day for one year. But this morning, i wasn't for immediately after i got off 75, i felt a sharp pain signalling from my stomach. I couldn't care less about running across the overhead bridge dressed in formal attire for the matter on hand is the most important. I shall spare the details about it but it's definitely like a massacre. Friends of mine would know that i am a big shitter and i ain't gonna lie. Like Jade said, i leave a part of me everywhere i go. How true. Sometimes, i wonder to myself as to why i need to shit so much for one has no idea the problems it cause but on the other hand, it's good to know that there's discharge from my intakes! Haha, please pardon me with the gross details for those with weak heart. Anyway, work today is just bad, to add up to the inevitable monday blues. Everything about work today is nothing but disastrous. Having two other temp staff should be something to rejoice about but when it turns out that they're of different frequency than i am, i somehow wishes that i had worked alone. If i was the only one the company hired, i could at least indulge myself in some self-pity sessions but the feeling now is like much worse than that. It makes me miss all the friends like crazy and i keep popping sweets like they're some happy pills. Sugar-free or mint only, to prevent adding more headaches regarding the weight. I think my attachment has spoilt me to the core. I'm like the pampered prince down there with so many people to talk to. I get to just rest as and when i want and gossip with the colleagues and share snacks with them. Almost everyday, breakfast would also be on my table when i reached the office and i always have someone who would entertain or talk to me. I miss those days. Working at the current place is like working in a world where robots take full control and i am doing the same thing over and over again. I'm just in a bad mood today and having eye bag that looks like someone just gave me two punches on the face doesn't help in making me feel any way better than i already did. But i'm glad i have friends and cousin who are willing to listen to my little whining session.

I feel so mechanized right now. I just spent the whole day doing the same thing over and over again facing a lifeless laptop. Pfft. And this morning, i had to take the same bus with this really inconsiderate couple. I thought it's taught to us all through our life that eating or drinking is not allowed? And being in such a small bus, i don't think eating sausage mcmuffin is a good idea for the whole bus was filled with that smell. And it couldn't get any better when they're sitting directly next to me, across the aisle. It is seriously very nauseating and i feel like a pregnant woman going through morning sickness and craving for a sour plum. I should've take note of their face so that i can take the same bus as them again and then, i will well, erm, eat smelly toufu in front of them? Hahaha. Okay, i think i'm too civilised for that to put across nicely to save myself some dignity. But on the other hand, at least the teachers taught me much better than theirs' did. Oh ya, i have my own cubicle at work! Hahaha. I've been dreaming of having my own little office space for a long time and i finally got a taste of it! Of course, it's not mine for long cause the original owner went on materity leave and she'll be back soon though i'm not exactly sure when. And the best part, it's the last cubicle! Hahaha! No one will catch me sleeping if i ever did. I'm not sure if i can post pictures of the office since they made me sign this contract that says i cannot disclose anything about the organization. So i can't really explain what their "anything" means. But i guess pictures of my current desk won't hurt much.

The cubicle is already small enough, and this lady needs 3 chairs! I always trip whenever i move in and out.
I'm bored and i miss the friends! Monotonous causes me to lose my sanity!
Can you believe it? I'm 19 and i'm already legally binded by 2 contracts for a work that only last 6 weeks! Okay, i'm bored.

My Angel

On most nights, before i go to bed, i have the habit of listening to a few songs first. Usually, they're some of the current favourite cause there's just too many songs to listen to. So yesterday, i was browsing through the songlist before "My Angel" catches my eyes. I clicked on it and got lost in my all time idol, Kellie Pickler's voice. I know the lyrics to the back of my head and i have listened to it upteen times but it has never affected me the way it did while listening last night. Halfway through the song, images of Grandpa flashes through my mind. It has been long since i last thought of him. Yes, he does crosses my mind on certain days but i can't remember the last time i actually remember HIM - his voice, his looks, his actions. And i misses him terribly. It has been what, 10 years, since grandpa passed and yesterday, i miss him more than i did for the past years added altogether, if this feeling can be quantified. I don't know the reason for the sudden emotional roller coaster ride. It may be all the stuff that is going on right now but i doubt so. I guess maybe, it's just right to think about grandpa every now and then even though he may be gone because after all, he did provide me with quite a lot of wonderful childhood memories. This particular song i'm talking about, My Angel, talks about how Kellie used to spend her days with her late grandma and what she wants to say to her and it's just so nostalgic. It reminds me of that one day when Grandpa took 3/4 years old (can't remember the age exactly) me to the beach and we spent the whole afternoon doing nothing but enjoying the scenery. I remembered sitting under a big tree only to discover it was covered with ants after it crawled all over us. He then bought ice-cream for me and i had it smeared all over my face, chocolate flavoured, and he didn't clean my dirty mouth and cheeks until we reaches home. Just a normal typical grandpa-grandson bonding activity but i still remember it clearly until now. It's the simplicity in life that etched so deeply in the heart. I also recall all the times we went to his place and would always have Yakult in the fridge specially for us. I was spoilt under my grandpa's love back then and i enjoyed every second of it, not knowing how much of a memory it would bring to me now. I guess i'm lucky in some way for i was the one he dotes on the most back then as compared to the other grandchildren and at least i get to spend some of my childhood with the presence of my grandpa, unlike others. Yes, i know and realizes i am lucky as compared to many many other. But i regret the fact that i can't reciprocate the love he has given me as a child who doesn't know what love is back then, and is getting a grasp its meaning now. I miss him and i think it's only right that we don't forget the people who are no longer physically a part of our life. It's good to think about Grandpa every now and then. If there's regrets in life, i would regret my behaviours towards him during his last days and i regret not remembering whether i told him how great and wonderful a grandpa he is and that i love him so much i don't think i ever told him before. Speaking of which, i still remember during one of the ching ming festival years ago, i drew a card and burned it for grandpa. Hahaha, okay, i was really silly at that time.

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Anyway, on a lighter note, first day of work couldn't get any worst. I was actually late for a good 20 minutes! And the job scope is seriously monotonous and boring and the environment is like working in a desert. I'm sure one would have know the amount of human activity in a desert - NONE! Okay, other than those moving tribes leading their camels. There's still so many days to go!

Agency told me to start work today and while on the way there this morning, i took out the contract ( yes, i have to sign this legally binding contract when i'm just 19 and working for 6 weeks ) to make sure i didn't miss out on anything and immediately, something strikes me. It states on the contract that my employment period starts on the 5th of Sept and today's the 4th. I thought it's some typo error and i called the agency but to no avail. So i figured that maybe i should just go to the office since i'm already nearing. So i reached rather early, much more than my likings, and sat in the lobby for a while before the agency finally called back. Indeed, damn that girl, work only commence for me tomorrow. What else can i do then to head on home, again. I seriously don't think waking up at 6 in the morning and having dressed up to the nines only to be told to go home is funny. Neither do i think being involved in this individual dress rehearsal is necessary. Anyway, shalln't complain much for at least i get to rest for one more day and get the news that work starts at 9 instead of 8.30! Haha.
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Lately, one of my idol, Katharine McPhee, has taken a series of photoshoot and most of her photos are simply breath-taking. I really like the one she took for InStyle magazine cause it's really really cool!

Lastly, Carrie Underwood's sophomore studio album, Carnival Ride, following her majorly successful debut album "Some Hearts", is set to be released October 23! This country superstar is set to break records again, with her new single So Small setting country radio stations on fire! Her first album went on to sell sextuple platinum, making her the highest selling idol ever, slightly outselling my favourite idol, Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway. Here is the album cover!

I'm not really liking this cover but who cares! As long as the songs are great, it's worth buying!

Interview this morning couldn't get any worse but somehow, they still decide to employ me. Haha, pure luck i guess. And i ain't really looking forward to it for the briefing has already killed some brain cells. Having to work OT till midnight at certain days is such a turn off. I'm sure the next few weeks or so, i will most probably call all the friends to have a little whining session. Anyway, met Diana after the interview to do some shopping but for reason unknown, nothing seems to catch our eyes. Everything just seems so dull and boring today. I guess it's our hormones. Haha. So to make us more happy, we went to AjiTei to have their desserts. The sugar sure works rather well!

This dessert, which i can't remember its name, is really really good and left both of us wanting for more.

To describe today’s mood as happy is an understatement. Truth is, I had a blast! First of all, met up with Liyi and HuiYing this morning for some sushi! I’ve been craving for it like crazy, to the extent that I salivate every time I think about it, ever since the exam period and they’re nice enough to accompany me and thus, we head off to Cineleisure’s Suki Sushi for their lunch buffet. I seriously think buffet is good for me in some way other than putting my weight in jeopardy cause I’ll eat like a glutton till I am sick to the stomach and I assure you that no one would catch me eating sushi anytime soon for the next 3 months or so. Anyway, I had a really great time catching up with these 2 crazy-yet-entertaining friends and we sure left with a satisfied stomach! After that, went to Bugis for some retail therapy before heading home around evening time. Next semester is going to be hectic and crazy, which makes it rather hard to meet up but I’m glad both of you managed to come out today! Seriously, one wouldn’t feel bored when you have these 2 clowns cum gossip monger around. Of course, I must be a nosey parker myself to enjoy their company! Haha. Anyway, here are some snapshots taken today. Below is a picture of me and my nanny for i'll always throw everything i bring inside her bag every time we meet. Hehe. Thanks!


One would have thought that scallop with cheese would taste heavenly but the answer can be seen from my face in the next picture, taken by Liyi.
It seriously tastes awful. Like crap, to put across nicely.Taken by a bored HuiYing, hahaha!

Last but not least, Ms Ng Liyi's candid shot! Hahaha! I know Liyi is going to slaughter me like a poultry after reading this for she told me before hand not to post this picture. But somehow or rather, when i look at this picture, i can't help but remember what she did while having the buffet. She tooks plates after plates of cream puff just because it's nice and she eat till she's so sick of it right now.

After bidding farewell to the 2, I went on to plaza to meet my favorite babe, Lee Lian!! Ran some errand before we had our “bubble-tea date”. This is a tradition practiced only by the 2 of us and it has been non-existent during the past few months for everyone is busy with their own stuff and I’m glad we get this opportunity to have a proper chat-session with a simple cup of drink. It has been long and therefore, we have never ending things to update each other on – from the relevant to the complete irrelevant and from the important to things that aren’t really our business. I, too, simply enjoy Lian’s company for she knows how to make me laugh like a hysterical kuku-head at times. Had a fantastic day with the friends and I simply couldn’t contain my joy when I was walking home as a smirk is plastered on the face. Though I’m zonked out at the end of the day, it’s still worthwhile for I get to spend some quality time with the people who play a really important role in my life. I simply love all my friends and family and I can’t imagine who I would have turned out to be if not for their love. And when I say love, I mean it in a sense as those between SpongeBob and Patrick and not those of Romeo and Juliet, for those who still retain the mentality of a 5th grader. Lastly, I’m still missing the other 3 friends! There’s a job interview on Monday and I’m damn nervous for I am in desperate need of a job!

Stinky Lian! Haha, i'm just kidding. She's damn healthy for she met me immediately after her run. And she don't stink, i swear. Hahahaha.

Love! More pictures will be up once this durian sends me the picture.