Friday, July 20, 2007

Okay, so i'm going to give it a shot on the topic "Me". Well, how do you begin in the first place? People normally start off by describing their personality and preferences, like how they're "cheerful" or "optimistic" or to a dramatic extent, a person you describe as being "emo". Here's something i have to disagree, or beg to differ to put it across nicely. Maybe it's just me but i just don't agree to how a person can be described simply using only words of an extreme and not a mixture of both ends. As in, people normally describe themselves as "cheerful" , "sensitive" or "optimistic" and seldom would they include antonyms like "insensitive", "pessimistic" etc. I think it may be due to my weird affection towards math and equation but i really do believe in having a balance for everything. For example, i wouldn't brand myself as being "cheerful" because i'm not a giggly persona all the time. The word "depress", or simply "grumpy", would come along occasionally. Maybe the cheerfulness happens most of the time but surely the depression would sunk in at certain occasions. Or i can say i'm a sensitive person but that's not the case all the time. I am, in fact, sensitive and insensitive. I can be really nice and tolerant at times but there are also times when i'm simply being an ignorant schmuck. See, everything balances in my dictionary. They may not necessary balance in the way like how 50grams = 50 grams but at least to me, our personality is filled with characteristics of both extremes. And maybe because of the influence of my course, i don't know but, over the years i've realized another thing that plays an important role in our daily portray of personality - decision making. For example, during the downside of life, i could choose to use the word "pessimistic" as my personality of the day, which is really easy because everyone feels like crap during such period. On the other hand, i can choose to discard the word and instead, pick the toughest word "optimistic" and display it for the day. Okay, in simpler terms, i can simply choose how i want to react to every situation, no matter how easy one option seems as compared to the other. I'm not sure if i'm making any sense here because this is the very reason why i can never bring myself to describe ME (Ernest Ng) most of the time. But at least i gave it a shot now. So to summarize, if i were to describe myself in , say, a few sentences? It would be how i believe that the combination of both ends of personality characteristics are embedded in everyone and how we would spend the day is about decision making.

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